darkness

i feel sad, worthless. i have hit a wall, i need help but no providers reach out their hands. i feel alone, i am alone, i missed school, not enough energy to get out of bed. what is wrong with me, why cant i be normal, why cant i fit in with everyone else. i'm the broken puzzle piece that doesn't anywhere. i'm surrounded by the darkness, lying there broken. i have lost my direction in life. i look for help but no help is found. hopelessness is beginning to over come me. i try to fit again against it but it pulls me under. cold, heavy, dark, it takes me under like a harsh wave. i am gasping for air. but the cold dark only pushes harder. suffocating me. i yell for help, but no one comes, what am i to do... i dont know, i think to myself as the darkness settles in for another harsh blow to my mind.... i only hope that someone recuses me before it's too late.